This is one of my favorite testimonies. I always think of it when I become "weary of waiting". God is so incredible. He will give us the desires of our heart, but we first have to make sure that our foremost desire is in doing the will of God. Please enjoy the song "Live in Me", as recorded on the Randall Fears', "Blessed Through Christ" album. This is the song the Lord impressed Catina to write, as a covenant of the following testimony.
Be Blessed
Toya
The year was 2002. My husband and I had been trying to conceive a child. I can't tell you how much money I had invested in pregnancy tests and ovulation kits. For two years this went on; each negative result causing more heartache than the one before. I had been diagnosed with thyroid disease and one of the many concerns my doctor had was that I may not be able to conceive. We were unable to control my thyroxine levels.
I had been talking to everyone; seeking any advice I could get as to what I needed to do in order to have a baby. It seemed, at that time, that everyone around me was having babies. I began to ask God why, why did He not deem it so for me. I finally gave up, and came to the resolve that I wasn't meant to bear a child. So, I invited Him, the Lord, in and told Him that I was alright with the idea of never conceiving. If He did not want to bless me with a child, I would accept His will for my life. If no life would ever dwell in my womb, I wanted the Lord to come and live in me. That day, He blessed me with a beautiful song, which I later recorded on Randall Fears', "Blessed Through Christ" album.
Even though I allowed myself to accept God's will, the blessing is that He still knew my heart's desire. I had no idea, but when he placed that song in my spirit, I was already pregnant. My son, Cooper is now six years old. And praise God, I've since had another son, Christian who is now two.
What I learned is to be patient. He already knows what He has for you and His design is to prosper and elevate you. I truly believe that once you give up (or let go of your will)....that the blessing is right around the corner. The Master likes to get us to a point where we can only depend on Him. It is then that he shows up and shows out, and reminds us why we call Him God.
Catina Graham, Grandview MO
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What a wonderful testimony of our God's provision and love...it makes my heart so glad to think of the way He shows up, right on time, to awe us. Thanks for sharing this experience...and, Toya, thanks for what you're doing here with this blog. I think it's an awesome mission you're on! You've already encouraged me...I'll definitely be linking to you from my blog, if that's okay by you! ~Christie (I followed you from your message on Christian Women Online! :) )
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